my little black book.

i switched my blog to

http://andita-myupdates.blogspot.com

hehe, enjoy

Life is good, my friend..

Mine is even better, because you’re in it.

Laie, Hi 11.09.06

Dear Andita,

It’s been a while since the last time we saw each other. I miss those time that we spent together. Its such a blessing to have a friend like you. U’ll aways be my best friend ever!!! Wish you all the best, hope we will meet soon =D

Loves and hugs

Jaredita Subandriyo

This friendship card was sent to me on 28 November 2006. She’s gone 9 months after… And she couldn’t make to see me.

jare sayang,

baik-baik yaa km disana. gw kangen bgt deh rasanya. barusan gw liat conversation terakhir kita di msn 6 hari yg lalu.. kapan lagi bisa ngobrol seru kyk gitu ya? hmmph..

sekarang gw cuma bisa berdoa, semoga lo tenang sekarang, dan bahagia disana. dan semoga ayah, mama, luki, ezra dan didi diberikan ketabahan. mereka baik2 kok jar, mereka ikhlas dan tabah, lo nggak usah khawatir yah..

lo inget nggak, kita terakhir ketemu kan december 2005, udh lama bangeet kan. pantesan aja gw kangen bgt sama lo. dan 6 hari yg lalu kita sebegitu excited nya nyusun rencana buat december nanti pas kita sama2 pulang ke jakarta.. dan yah, manusia memang cuma bisa berencana, ternyata Tuhan berkehendak lain..

i cried so hard when i heard the news, but then i realized and remember that you can’t stand seeing others crying. so i stopped. dan yg akhirnya muncul di kepala gw adalah begitu banyak penyesalan..

gw blm sempet bales surat lo, maafin ya jar. bukan surat seperti ini yg harusnya gw kirim untuk lo. bukan surat yg isinya begini.. maafin gw ya jar.. gw nggak ada pas lo sakit, gw nggak ada pas lo pergi, dan nanti pun gw nggak bisa ngelayat dan ngeliat lo untuk yg terkahir kalinya, maafin gw ya jar, maafin gw.. gw tau, kl lo msh ada, lo akan bilang "gapapa kali taaa.. gw ngerti kook. i’m okaay! tp december nanti lo kunjungin gw yaa, jgn lupa lho..". aah jare. lo selalu seperti itu.. selalu ceria dan nggak pernah keliatan punya beban sedikitpun..

cuma doa yg gw bisa kasih untuk lo jar. oh ya, bbrp minggu yg lalu gw beli kalung best friend lho buat kita.. jadi kalungnya ada 2, yg satu tulisannya ‘best’, satunya lagi ‘friend’.. rencananya sih mau gw kasih lo nanti pas kita ktmu. december nanti gw bawain yah pas gw ngunjungin lo, pasti lo suka deh..

foto2 kita juga nanti gw tempel yaa di buku harian kita. kita punya banyaak bgt foto2.. haha dasar banci foto. aah jare.. you’re young and beautiful and talented and smart and funny, and friendly and humble. you have everything that every girl has ever wanted.. and i’m proud of you for that.. have i told you that?

gw nggak akan pernah lupain semuanya yg pernah kita lewatin bareng. apapun yg terjadi, lo tetep sahabat terbaik gw, dan nggak akan pernah tergantikan.. dan gw yakin ada puluhan orang di luar sana yg jg menganggap elo adalah sahabat mereka. see? you’re everybody’s bestfriend! and i envy you very2 much.. hehe.

bokap gw, nyokap gw, dan arya, semua juga sayang elo jar, dan ngerasa kehilangan.. bahkan mereka kangen denger suara lo teriak2 di rumah gw, haha. aah jadi inget waktu kita belajar dandan di rumah gw pake make up tebel, trus langsung keluar rumah naik sepeda muter2, akhirnya beli es abang2. haha lucu yaa. trus dulu jaman smp, saking rumah lo deket sama sekolah, lo nggak mau bawa uang jajan dari paginya. maunya pas bel istirahat lo pulang dulu, ambil duit ,baru jajan.. dan gw nurut aja diajak2 ke rmh lo dulu walopun akhirnya kita berdua smp sekolah lagi pas bel msk kelas udh bunyi, hahaha aneh bgt sih..

jaree. gw bener2 beruntung bisa punya kesempatan utk bertemen dan bahkan bersahabat sama org seperti lo.. may you rest in peace jar..

love,

andita.

weekend! asikk…

rencananya hari ini pada (wendy, odri, lele, andre) mau ke Cittering.. gw udh pengen ikut gitu dari kmrn, walaupun nggak tau itu tempat apa, tp gw pengen ikut. tapiii, ooh tidaakkk hari ini ada group meeting jam 12! padahal rencananya jam 12 itu mereka baru mau pulang dari sana.. yah, g jadi ikut deh.

trusnyaa, entah kenapa mlm kebangun-tidur-bangun-tidur smp 3 kali, dan setiap tidur adaa aja mimpi buruknya. huhuhu ada apa ya.

yasudahlah, mau siap2 group meeting dulu deh. daa.

ps: selamat hari kemerdekaan, Indonesia..

too many things going on recently. too many changes, the sudden changes that i’d never even think of before.. some ppl just suddenly becoming another person who has the opposite personality as they used to have, i just never thought of them that way.. why? because i never believe that someone good will turned out to be a bad person later on.. not just ‘bad’, but ‘mean’! what is exactly do they want? showing off to everybody that they never care about me, that i don’t deserve anything from them anymore? don’t get me wrong. i don’t expect anything from them, but what they do for me just keep me wondering.. phuuhh.. people are confusing.

even someone that i thought knows me more than i do, is turning to be a person that i don’t recognize anymore.. once, twice, and even three times i tried to keep our good realtionship by dropping off messages just to say hi or try to make a conversation. he/she responded well. yah biasa aja lah respond nya, jelek enggak, bagus2 banget juga enggak. i’ve put much effort on it though. but he/she doesn’t seem to have the same will as i have.. when i don’t contact him/her, he/she won’t try to contact me as well, or anything that indicate the effort of having a good friendship with me.

what have i done to him/her? have i done something bad and mean? it feels so sad to lose a friend or someone who used to be very close with us right? and i can’t afford to loose our friendship over something i’m not knowing..

today, freo. 2 seafood trays for 3. i bought the pig doll (aneh..). left my mobile phone at home, its been the 4th time on this month. forgot to return those heaps of blockbuster’s dvds. damn damn damn. fasting tomorrow. sleepy. finally i tried and tested the ice rock ice cream, yay! go your way and i’ll go mine, live your life and i’ll live mine, you’ll do well and i’ll be fine, the phrase from usher’s seperated that brainwashed me today, nyehee. starting my career as a professional pre-wedding photographer, victims: wendy and bf. took a good shot of caramel machiatto at Merchant =P. sunny day, yet so windy. tante geisye, email akuuuu dong. keep away. i’m not as complicated as you thought i was, heh. jawapos. medeni, haha. 

honestly what will become of me

don’t like reality

it’s way too clear to me

but really life is dandy

we are what we don’t see

missed everything daydreaming

flames to dust, lovers to friends

why do all good things come to an end

flames to dust, lovers to friends

why do all good things come to an end

travelling i only stop at exits

wondering if i’ll stay

young and restless

living this way i stress less

i want to pull away when the dream dies

the pain sets it and i don’t cry

i only feel gravity and i wonder why

well the dogs were barking at a new moon

whistling a new tune

hoping it would come soon

and the sun was wondering if it should stay away

for a day ’till the feeling went away

and the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and

the rain forgot how to bring salvation

the dogs were barking at the new moon

whistling a new tune

hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

a song by nelly furtadoo.. nicceeee..

just finished watching ‘my bestfriend’s wedding’, and i found this wonderful song by Tony Bennet.

The Way You Look Tonight

Someday, when I’m awfully low

When the world is cold

I will feel a glow just thinking of you

And the way you look tonight

But you’re lovely, with your smile so warm

And your cheek so soft

There is nothing for me but to love you

Just the way you look tonight

With each word, your tenderness grows

Tearing my fear appart

And that laugh that wrinkles your nose

It touches mu foolish heart

Lovely.. never ever change

Keep that breathless charm

Won’t you please arrange it?

‘Cause I love you, just the way you look tonight

Just the way you look tonight…

dear,

i love you from the green of spring

untill the cold of winter morning

but then how should i stay when

love and pain are growing?

i should leave now or never

but my love will stay forever

even we won’t be together

dear,

when i left..

my day is gone and all its sweets are gone

my leaves are falling one by one

nothing different between night and dawn

i have lost even the twilight mind

but, if i should learn from this

when i lose some, i will win some

sorrow and grief of love

replaced by a better me in the future

sometimes i think that doesn’t matter

when actually what i want to be is next to you.

inspired by fira basuki’s.

just finished watching boston legal (on tv) and new york minute (on dvd)… nunggu superboii tp dia blm dateng2 juga, sementara wendy n odri udh pada tidur..

hmm, bsk ituu ngapain yaa. ada lecture jam 12 smp jam 3. trus jam 5 smp jam 6 ada lagi, adoooohh malas yaa. jadi cuma punya wkt 2 jam dong buat nyiapin *&%#$@!!!*&%#* (censored), hehe. wait wait! i think i got another option.. humm, SKIP THE CLASS ! the 5pm one i mean.. yes yes.

coba yah, bayangin nih kls lect jam 12 bareng odri, lect jam 1.30 bareng wendy.. yg mana daripada mereka itu adalah teman2 serumah saya sendiri.. udah serumah, sekelas juga.. kalo kata odri "kasian jg ya lo idupnya monoton".. hiks hiks.. iyaaaa hidupku monotonnn. isinya itu lagi itu lagi.. well its not that they’re boring or what, but i just don’t know how to escape from this monoton life..

sometimes i even prefer to be alone. i love my time alone. call me a loner, but that’s what i do and i like.. i also love to make new friends, but

hey nanti sambung lagiii si superboii datengg.

daaaa.